On this page is the Pen & Ink Series, a collection of traumacore images made via ball point pens on drawing paper. Since these are smaller pieces, with a different approach and process to make from my print work, they are gathered here.
NoMore Pain
9" x 12" Pen on Paper - 2022
Exploring my sexual assault further, I continued to use gore to express my feelings regarding the rape. The violent depiction of a cut along the chest and belly of the rabbit open up to show her bones and organs, showing the utter vulnerability I felt daily. A split in her skull, showing my brain, indicate the absolute state of my traumatized mind. The text reads "He cant Hurt Me ANYMORE," a phrase that provided some level of comfort, linked to her ear, keeping her upright. Meanwhile another string is bolted to her leg, dragging her down.
Every Friend is an Enemy
9" x 12" Pen on Paper - 2023
This piece explores a pattern that has occurred throughout my life. Friends abandon me, or lather bully and harass me out of the group. A pattern I was sure would continue, which it did. Around this time, I had a complete mental breakdown due to my fears of being ousted from another friend group, all in front of friends who later abandoned me. In this piece, friends in general are shown as both a knife, headed for the back of a rabbit's head. She is being choked by a fox, with the negative space between them resembling a pen tip, while also being a pin from a Floraverse discord RP event. Speaking of Floraverse, an Angel from the series appears, looking like a hand and reaching for the rabbit's paw. It says "We are nice."
They Use Me I Lose Me
12" x 9" Pen on Paper - 2023
yet another exploration of my sexual assault. This time, focusing on my disassociations due to PTSD. Exploring the experience of disassociating via image and text.
Gut Me Like A Rabbit
9" x 12" Pen on Paper - 2022
A exploration of not just my rape, but also if the use of a boarder on this style I was developing at the time was necessary. These pieces are part of the Shadowbox series. In this series, I explore my emotions, experiences, and mental health struggles by placing elements representing these things in a shadowbox like layout. Part of the look is the use of a boarder to frame the shadowbox, but early on I was not sure if this was needed. I used this piece to explore if not having a boarder would work visually. In the end I felt it did not work the way I hoped. The use of a boarder adds to the piece, giving context to the space, and creating a strong sense of negative space. Without a boarder, things seem to float without rhyme nor reason, and the piece lacks a grounding element. This exploration of the format was natural, and taught me a lot about how this format should look.
The Crime Of Exploring My Feelings
9" x 12" Pen on Paper - 2022
A piece exploring my time in a cult. I was making a webcomic exploring my feelings regarding certain things, and the head of the cult took issue with how certain feelings were expressed. This was due to these expressions making them feel bad, and they directly told me the quote used here.
I Saw It
9" x 12" Pen on Paper - 2023
Looking into my early childhood, I explore the domestic abuse I unfortunately witnessed.
You blame me for what you have done and expect me to apologize to you
9" x 12" Pen on Paper - 2023
Further exploring my time in a cult.
You fail to realize my goals
9" x 12" Pen on Paper - 2023
more cult stuff
