Shower Thoughts At Eleven 

9" x 12" Linocut print - 2026

When I was 11 an older student would sexually harass me nearly everyday in school. He would describe in detail how he would rape me, what parts of him he would put in me, and where. These interactions were my introduction to the concept of sex. This had lasting consequences for me, ones I still deal with to this day. 

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This piece explores my memories of thinking about his sexual harassment during my showers. Questions I would ask myself. As the harassment continued, these dark fantasies of his became mine, which made me further question things. Child on child sexual abuse, or COCSA, is not talked about much. I attribute this to how uncomfortable the topic makes people. Unfortunately, just because we don't talk about it does not mean it isn't a real thing. 

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Eventually, the older student would cross a line, and I responded by scratching his arm. I got in trouble for that, since it left marks. I explained to the school what happened and why I attacked him. The school, in response, had the two of us apologize to each other, and then promptly swept the whole situation under the rug. I suppose that was easier than dealing with a case of COCSA.